Hair dilemma

I keep battling within myself if I should just cut my hair or not.

Bob is good - bob means I don’t have to worry about bad hair days on workdays. I can just blow dry and everything will fall in place. The only problem will be spraying my fringe and ensuring it doesn’t fall apart.

Long hair - gosh I have to really hope the water wherever I am doesn’t cause the hair to be too slippery and soft, I’ve sometimes days where no matter how I pin the bun feels loose, or there’s just no volume at the top. I can tie and retie for 25 mins and it’s still not satisfactory.

But now that I’ve finally gotten my hands on this, I’ll hold back the idea of cutting them tresses for a while.

I found u, Create Ion!
I knew if there was a place to find this it would be at BIC Camera. And thankfully it’s dual voltage!

Depression

Sorry to have heard of Jonghyun of SHINee’s death.
I have only heard of the band but I don’t know them, and don’t know their songs. I know only one member as he had appeared on Running Man before.

Hearing of this death though is upsetting. How many lives are going to be lost to  depression?

Today his suicide note was released. So painful to read. It did read like a tortured soul had written it.

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I was broken from the inside.

The depression slowly chipped me away, finally devouring me.

I could not beat the negativity.

I hated myself. Even though I tried so hard demanding my memories that kept getting cut off to 'wake up,' all I got in return was silence.

I'd rather stop if I cannot breathe.

I asked who could be responsible for me.

You're the only one.

I felt utterly alone.

It is easy to say "I'm going to end it."

It is very difficult to actually go through with it.

I've been struggling through the difficulty.

I told myself that it's just me wanting to run away from everything.

It's true. I really did want to run away.

From me.

From you.

I asked, "Who's there?" It's me. It's me again. And it's me the third time.

I asked, "Why do I keep on losing my memory?" They said it's due to my personality. I see. It's all my fault.

I wanted someone to notice (my suffering), but no one knew. Of course, they wouldn't. They never met me before.

I asked why people live. Just. Just. They live "just because."

If I ask why people died, they would probably say they couldn't bear it any longer.

Troubling thoughts flooded my head. I never got the chance to learn how to change dull pain into pure joy.

Pain is just pain.

I kept reprimanding myself not to do so.

Why? Why can't I even end my life with my own will?

I tried figuring out the reasons for my pain and suffering.

I already had the answer. I was in pain because of me. It's all my fault that I carry so many imperfections.

Teacher, is this what you wanted to hear?

No. I didn't do anything wrong.

I used to think that it's so easy for doctors to blame your personality for the suffering in their calm voice.

It surprises me how I am feeling this much pain. Those people, who have suffered worse than I, seem to go on living perfectly fine. Those weaker than I am live on as well. I guess not. Among the living, there is no one who is suffering worse and no one who is weaker.

The only answer I got back was "just live nevertheless."

Asking the purpose of life more than one hundred times is not for me. It's for you.

I wanted to do it for me.

Please don't say things you don't know.

How could you ask me to still look for reasons behind my pain? I told you multiple times why I'm suffering. Do I need more reasons to be in pain? More dramatic details in my stories? More stories even?

I told you already. Were you absent-minded when I told you? Things you can bear and even come above do not leave scars.

It wasn't my responsibility to go against the world.

It wasn't my path to become world-famous.

That's why they say it's hard to go against the world and to become famous. Why did I choose this path? It's quite funny now that I think about it.

It's a miracle that I endured through it all this time.

What more can I say. Just tell me "good job."

You did great. Tell me I suffered enough.

Even though you can't laugh right now, just don't send me off blaming me.

Good job.

You suffered a great deal.

Good-bye.

Ding!

Random thought while in bed.

I eat animals that are low in intellect.
I eat poultry and seafood (but not octopus).
I eat neither beef, mutton nor pork....

Perhaps that explains my IQ.
(O_O)

Midway through an unexpected break

I am suppose to be in Delhi now but OHMYLUCKYSTAR!, someone asked for my flight on Monday because she had to go back to Delhi for personal matters.
As a result I have been off since Monday (post-London) and will be off until Friday!

Since I have so many days in Singapore, what do I do? Relax.

Monday was spa day at Goodwood Park Hotel. That night I couldn’t sleep (actually I fell asleep too early and then woke up at midnight and couldn’t fall back asleep) until 5.30 am.
Thus I spent a good part of Tuesday just in and out of sleep. I managed to drag myself out for a scalp treatment though.
Today I had a leisurely lunch with Hsin Ching before going for a facial, which is actually a trial at a medical spa in Orchard Road.

I am thinking of going to perm my hair tomorrow, but I’ll see how it goes. Maybe I’ll go to the library instead or just stay at home.


On Monday I signed up for a spa package (........) after that session. Today of course the medical spa wanted me to commit myself but since I’ve another trial to go, I told them I’ll wait to see results. I must be firm and not be coerced into signing up for anything  >.<

On Saturday all these will end and I’ll go back to the reality of working to pay for all the bills I’ve racked up. 

Donki

Don Quijote, Japan’s version of Mustafa, is open in Singapore! This is their first store beyond Japanese shores and is located at Orchard Central.
It’s known as Don Don Donki here.

It opened to much fanfare. Before its opening day it had invited the media and bloggers for a preview.

I was there today and it was so crowded. Space was tight, just like in Japan! They carried everything you’ll need for a home and more, only that there were less varieties of each type of item. For example, in Japan there are aisles after aisles of hair styling tools but here it’s just a shelf. I can understand why since they can’t bring everything here due to voltage differences. Another example is cosplay costumes - in Japan there may be an entire aisle or two for that but here there are just a few pieces.

I was most amazed that they managed to bring in huge Japanese apples and selling them at merely $2.90 each.
Huge Japanese radish are only $4.90 each. There’s also an area that sells freshly made food and they’re cheap! I saw a takeaway box of fried chicken cutlet over rice for only $6.90. Salmon prices were almost the lowest I’ve ever seen in Singapore (from decent places - by that I exclude Giant).

The empty shelves really speak for themselves. Singaporeans are welcoming Donki with much passion. 

Going to up my layering game

London is going to be cold just on the days when I’ll be there. Will have to up my game in layering clothes because I don’t want to pack the puffy down jacket that takes up too much space!

I look forward to a good night’s rest. Will put my troubles away and rest.

When I went for a hair wash this morning, the lady washing my hair asked if I didn’t have a good night’s rest. She could feel the heat from my scalp and the shampoo just wasn’t bubbling. Whoa, never knew one can tell so much from just a hair wash.

I love love love our crew

It has been a long long time since I went about with a big group of crew.
We went out today to a beer hall for late lunch and then off we went to the Christmas Market in Marienplatz.

I truly enjoy the company of our crew. All the pilots joined the cabin crew. It was havoc.

Truly great people who work hard onboard and then play hard later. (They are in the room next door drinking away now, round 2.)

Today was such a beautiful evening visiting the Christmas market. It snowed and as it was very cold, it was most satisfying to drink Glühwine in this weather. The Christmas market had also just opened two nights ago, so lucky me I got here in time for this.

Munich is always special. Munich in winter will be forevermore special.
Ich liebe Deutschland!


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I had a Singaporean couple on my flight today who flew in for their honeymoon. Honeymoon destinations are Munich, St Petersburg and Iceland. Geographically speaking, it’s not that near and rather unconventional. I salute them for being different. (Last year, they even visited the Arctic circle!)
Looking at them lovebirds I reminisced MY honeymoon. I remember being uber excited when I went on the flight. I wanna go back to Hawaii......... the world is just to big and I’ve too many places that I want to go to.
In the last week, I discovered 2 places that would be nice to go to. One of it is Sikkim. Please google it to see how beautiful it is! But this will probably be a forever-dream. There’s no way I’m gonna brave the trains in India for this. Teleportation device needed.